Hello! I feel a little guilty for not sharing this ahead of time, I don’t know why, that’s strange. But, um, I’m in Singapore right now. It’s been two weeks since I got here. And I don’t really have the eagerness to write about it. It’s quite sad, noh?
Well, like they say, this usually takes time. I’m here for work, which I still currently looking for, by the way. It’s hard here. I mean, of course, I would be a hypocrite if I didn’t say the idea of living without my parents didn’t excite me. It’s just that, I didn’t actually think everything would be like this. The places are great, and the people are okay. I’ve gotten a couple of pictures. Maybe I’ll post it here once I’ve got the “enthusiasm”. Oh well. Adjustments are never easy. Honestly, I think that everything just overwhelmed me, I didn’t transition well. I felt like just going to another place for vacation, and going back in a week or so. But it wasn’t like that. Right now, I’m both happy and sad, and like Charlie (Perks of being a Wallflower), I’m still figuring out how that could be. But on the other hand, I am truly truly grateful and blessed to have been supported by my family. I just wish I could’ve exchanged the same enthusiasm for them. Maybe someday….
Well, everyone has got detours in their lives, and this is probably mine. I don’t know where I’m at, at this point of my life, it’s confusing and lost. But then again, humans as we are, we all experience this.
Anything can be a lesson, if you really think about it. This is part of growing up. So many things are happening at the same time and it’s kind of getting the best of me, which, sucks. I know it shouldn’t. I’m taking one day at a time, I’m allowed to be like this, right?
We all need darkness sometimes. Through that darkness, we can find cracks of light somewhere. And then we let it in. We let the light in, and everything will be okay.
Note to self: Don’t be dragged down by negativity. Push yourself to learn from everything. Absorb every experience. The good ones, the bad ones. Thank yourself later.